I wanted to examine how we make choices when life is in constant motion. For the last 10 years a lot of my personal work stems from my dream state. Whether I’m daydreaming or asleep and then waking up and writing down or drawing what I see. The multi-faceted nature of photography allows me to highlight the tension between clarity and mystery. This process teeters on many of the thresholds of binary oppositions that consist of my work, just as language does. The polarity between light and shadow, life and death, absence and presence, subject and object, form and formlessness, fluidity and stasis is the very essence of my work. With these polarities in mind, I am constantly on a quest to create this visual representation of my existence, of my constant battle between the narrative of the self and my actual self. The idea of nostalgia and how it is inherent in analogue photography dances intimately with my work. The beauty of large format allows me and also forces me to slow down and consider what I am doing in a more thoughtful way. It enables me to have increased control over the images that I make but at the same time gives me no control over the images that are produced. I want to unlock a beautiful mystery, moments that exist in my world, to show the collision of my reality, my daydreams, and ‘actual’ reality. A world of sleepy bliss and fantasy that exists in moments, not a consistent way of being, just as the photograph is a moment taken from the continuous flow of experience. Head in the clouds & feet on the ground.
